Following your inner guidance from your Higher Self (HS) isn’t always a bed of roses. Yea, I know. I have this whole site promoting the support, guidance and unconditional love of your HS, but just like a small child I can sometimes feel lost, or maybe spoiled, by so much support.
On Monday afternoon I found myself in just such a childish state, stomping around in some kind of resistant energy field, feeling strident, defensive and cranky. And I definitely did NOT want to take action to shift out of it. That defiance was seductive, a familiar feeling no matter how uncomfortable it was, and though a buddy coach was willing to support me in moving to a better feeling state, I was not willing to go. Hmmmm, what’s up with that?
Personally, I think I was in retreat mode from receiving a lot of communication from my HS that I hadn’t taken the time to process. I’m still learning the nuances of following my excitement and allowing positive synchrony to happen. My HS is willing to continually feed me a number of ideas and actions that feel exciting, inspiring even, when they are delivered, but when I somehow think I can do them all, I end up feeling oh so overwhelmed.
I see communication in everything around me, everything. What people say to me, what songs I hear on the radio, the ideas that come to me through meditation, the movies I see (loved Avatar), the TV shows I watch (Lost and its new “alternate universe” spoke to me), what happens in my dream state, etc, etc. Communication is always streaming forth.
That non-physical part of me that I refer to as my HS exists in the Now moment where there is no time or space limitation. So when I receive communication about taking action, for my HS there is no difference between my doing it today or doing it ten years from now. It’s all the same Now moment. That’s the nuance for me to learn in my 3D world is to feel for the most exciting action/idea and follow that, not follow every idea that I receive.
So, was the defensive, strident energy field a throw back to past conditioning having a temper tantrum? It did, after all, feel very much like ego stomping around. Or was it yet another way for my HS to provide guidance and support for me to take a step back, stop trying to do it all, and take stock about what it is I really want to be doing?
If you like the idea of improving your skills at interpreting the communication flowing to you, please join me in my Coached Collectives. In these groups you have the opportunity to practice sharing your interpretation of the collective energy in a safe and supportive environment. Join me for my next free PREVIEW CALL on Wednesday, February 10 at 11:00 am CT (noon ET, 9:00 am PT).