Learning new technology is the spiritual path I’m now walking. It must be, because why else would my computer consistently bring me face to face with my dark side?
I’ve spent years peeling away conditioning, feeling through resistance and self-sabotage, and expanding my consciousness, yet when a highly touted software program is ridiculously difficult to use, I find myself in a big, dark energy field full of helplessness, frustration and blame. I feel angry, full of spit and vinegar when I’m trying to do what I think the program says to do and it doesn’t work, and the user’s guide seems to be in Latin and the 24/7 live chat is off the air. Guidance from my Higher Self at this point is miles away as I sink into the emotional whirlwind of overwhelm and self-pity. Yes, Virginia, you still can access those “darker” energies even when you think you are an awakened being.
In comes “Roger” one Sunday morning. “Roger” was a field of energy that showed up and told me to call him whatever popped into my mind because where he is there are no names; beings are recognized by their unique energy field instead. Communication is all through telepathy and physical form is just something to play with. As I’m learning this from Roger he morphs into several shapes that I can recognize as an image, and several more that I can’t “see,” but can only feel.
Roger is here to help me with all of this new technology. He’s been trying to get my attention, but I’ve been so lost to the frustration, anger, and blame that I couldn’t hear him. Near the end of our “conversation,” we stood back to back (energetically of course) and held hands and then together, he morphed us into a tree. In flooded those wonderful feelings of peace, strength and steadfastness that have eluded me for weeks. Ahhh, now I have a broader perspective. In this moment I can see the opportunities for growth and evolution that are showing up as computer and project issues. Even though I had recognized this potential before, I now received this knowing in a more cellular, deeper way that is not describable with words, but in Landmark vernacular, I really “got it.”
So, have all of my technology issues gone away with my new enlightenment? Not yet, though I have been able to access Roger a couple of times to help smooth the way with a project or two. But, I’ve also gotten lost in frustration, helplessness and judgment, raging at the computer, the programmers and anyone else that seems connected to the problem. I’ve often told my clients that our relationships are our biggest spiritual growth opportunities. Right now, it appears my computer/technology is that relationship for me!
The fun part of this story is Roger. Is he just a figment of my imagination? Is he another aspect of me living out a life in another dimension, time or space? Or is he a guide from the non-physical plane sent to give me assistance?
Do you have “beings” show up like this for you and how do you talk to yourself about who they are? Do tell!